For years, I have wanted to be a mom. So for the past 12 months, I have tried to cherish every good and well, difficult moment! I knew it was going to be hard to work, and travel, and raise a kid, but that didn’t deter me. Thanks to my wonderful husband, superwoman mom, mother-in-law, sisters….(who am I kidding, it takes everyone!)….I have been able to keep doing what I love and be a mom. For me, it’s been the best of both worlds.
Everyone is different, but for me, working is a part of who I am. I have found that I am a better mom because I go to work. I also enjoy my work more, because being a mom is the toughest job of all! Now, that doesn’t mean juggling both is easy. There are so many times this year I’ve said, “I’m good at a lot of things, but not GREAT at anything!”.
It can be very overwhelming.
I started back to work covering college football when Hunter was just 10 weeks old. I decided I was going to take him with me every weekend.
OH MY. THE STUFF! For even just two days, we could fill the back of my SUV with bottles, clothes, a pack ‘n’ play, a stroller, diapers, the list goes on…. And flying?? Well- that was just hilarious. My mom and I had about three bags a piece – and Hunter strapped to my chest in the Baby Bjorn trying to get to the rental car. (travel tips with a baby to come!)
He started sleeping through the night early – but on the road? Never. There were times I’d wake up with him in the middle of the night and think, I can’t possibly do my job today! Then somehow, I’d make it through.
Basketball season started, and because I live in Dallas, I didn’t want to leave Hunter at home. So, off we went to OKC! He came with me to almost every home game. However, the hardest part was leaving him behind. I thought I was going to have a permanent heartache the first time I left on a road trip! But I quickly learned that I needed to appreciate the time away. Go on a run, read a good book, just be still. I learned to enjoy these moments away as well.
No one can tell you how wonderful it is. How much love you feel for this little person. How you could burst with joy when you see them. How you’ll fly from San Francisco and get into OKC at 4am, sleep 2 hours in the airport, and then board a plane to Dallas just to get home before he wakes up in the morning. Totally crazy, but so worth it.
And so hard. There are some things people told me to try to prepare me for your first year, and some things I wish they had. Here are a few things I’ve learned:
- Mom guilt is a real thing.
- Coffee is a necessity.
- It takes a year to feel like you’re getting the hang of things…
- maybe longer….
- You will be tired every day….for the rest of your life!
- Naps are God’s gift to moms.
- You may become a social recluse for a while. That’s ok.
- Mom’s need grace. A lot of it.
- Accidents happen.
- Don’t wish away the now, because the years really do fly by.
Most importantly, Hunter has made me realize what is really important in life. I care less about how I look on air, if I stumbled during the broadcast, or if I made a mistake on the show. I’m not perfect, at work or at home, and my family doesn’t expect me to be. I am just trying to be the best mom I can, work as hard as I can, and enjoy what God has given me. One year down. Here’s to the next.