L.A. will always be a bittersweet place for me to visit. Every time I go there a wave of emotions hits me. This was the place I had always wanted to live. This is the place that brings back so many happy memories but so much pain. This was the place I visited time and time again with Elizabeth.
I’ve run into a couple of friends lately who either just had their first baby or are about to. I see in their faces everything that must have been on mine for the last year and a half: fear, excitement, happiness, sadness, exhaustion, confusion: You can still smile with tears in your eyes. That’s what it’s like to be a first time mom. As they say, #AlltheFeels.
Here are a few things I’ve learned over the past year and change. I am sure someone told me these things, but maybe you’ll never really understand until you go through it.
People always ask me if someone does my hair and make-up…I wish! Ten years in the industry, and I’ve always done my own. The good news, I’ve figured out a few tricks along the way.
From the second you walk up to the football stadium, you’ll have five different smiling faces asking if you need help with directions. Another 10 people will probably say hi.
Our Fox Sports analyst Brian Baldinger looked to one stadium attendant and said, “Is everyone nice at TCU?”. The girl smiled, and answered, “yes!”.
I love football. Like, I really love football….feel it in my bones, chill bumps on my arms, screaming at the field, bleeding burnt orange…..love football.
Remember the little girl from Remember the Titans? Not only is it one of my family’s favorite shows, but little blond curly-haired passionate Sheryl Yoast, played by Hayden Panettiere, is my spirit animal.
Even as I’m writing this, I’m trying to decide if it’s a good idea. But something lately has been pulling on my heart strings.
Maybe it’s because, when we decide to have another child, it won’t be easy. Maybe it’s because, I feel like there are so many other people going through the same thing. Maybe it’s because, this week, I found out my insurance would no longer cover infertility. Maybe it’s because, I know the pain of wanting to be a mom so bad it hurts and feeling like you’re at the end of your rope.
So here goes….